Discovery is the Fall of Fear

So in following up to last week, I have updates. No, mom, I didn’t get a job.

What I got was an outpouring of understanding and affirmation. It is so easy to forget that often times it takes us breaking down and submitting to vulnerability to discover true understanding and find the light. In the words of Rory Gilmore “It’s just like I’m standing on this cliff looking out into this huge foggy abyss”.

Only a few days ago I would have never let myself watch this episode of Gilmore Girls at this point in my life. It is too relatable, and oh so real. Except I was already there, I needed to process to know that these feelings don’t apply to me only, and that 8 years ago they were equally applicable.

It only seems like everyone else has their life together, but even those people feel like me. No one knows what life is going to look like in two weeks, there is no map, there is no wrong answer, no right answer. The days of multiple choice are gone. All we are left is with questions that have an infinite amount of answers, and an infinite amount of context.

I keep dreaming of all the different places I could end up, but the thing is that if I keep dreaming up the places I could end up and feeling let down when those don’t happen, I am going to miss life. Two years ago I had the guts to say no to a dream, and I have been blessed in the many other ways those desires of a life on stage have been satisfied. I never saw that coming. So here I am ready and waiting to see what next thing I am going to be crazy enough to say yes to or no to.

I’m going to choose to thrive in the now, in where I end up, and live a life that is worthy of being a dream, instead of living for a dream with a life passes by. So now it is time to jump into that abyss with full abandon and find out what is at the bottom.

HABITS

I’M AN ADULT, therefore I owe it to myself and no one else to create healthy habits. It just makes life feel better. We already deal with so much junk in the world why let something like dirty dishes and trash get in the way of your joy and spiritual growth. You can be so much and do so much if you set yourself up. 

Bad Habits are like ankle weights they drag your feet and create these troughs. You get comfortable where your feet have eroded the dirt over and over. You feel it you know it. One day you look up from your feet and your eyes are at the level of the ground. 

Good habits are like a pulley they give you support the more you use it. They don’t let you get comfortable with the ground you trod, because you don’t notice it anymore. You are more concerned with the sky above and around you to notice you are walking on untouched soil. 

So I challenge you to join me in this journey to develop good habits. I started by making a check list in my Passion Planner for all the things I’m trying to turn into steady habits.

Now, in no way am I perfect. I have already failed at some, but I do not just take it off the list and say well my goals are too big. NO. I leave it there to remind myself I can keep working to get better. Once those others are habits, I still have more work to do.

So to those of you who choose to join me, prayers and blessings as we pursue a foundation for growth in our life!